Yeah, I have trouble getting my head around the 'contemporary' stories. It's hard if you have a rough life because you have the defensive instinct not to mirror it with your fiction which may only empower your own 'dark depths'. God I'm so envious of the writers who don't suffer depression and who can cheerfully rattle this stuff off. Garth Ennis'
Punisher comics are very bleak, cruel and emotionally demanding, but he always seems to be jolly enough in his photos!

And he manages to offset his stories with glorious triumphs of the human spirit.
I've had a big, ambitious graphic novel project stagnating for 5 years because every time I delve into the brutal realism I'm trying to depict, I get horribly-depressed and I end up 'sucking my thumb' while reading my back progs. I've got to get a grip and move forwards. The story I am writing is ultimately very positive and inspirational, but the 'bad bits' are essential to give it depth and gravitas because if it doesn't emotionally touch the reader, then the overall message becomes impotent. This year, the first book should be seeing conclusion, helped massively by my restored confidence in my drawing ability which is due to the opportunities that UK fanzines including the
Blackfriars collection and
Massacre For Boys, have generously afforded me.